On med’s again

I’m having some out of body expreiences like I am watching myself but I’m not in my body.

My med’s are helping with my anxiety and ocd and my mood a little bit but my depression is still high.

Maybe if I wasn’t here my family would be better off.

why couldn’t I of just killed myself without letting anyone know my plan? I am in a in-patient treatment center now.

I feel like I am in a bad dream. Can killing myself wake me up from this nightmare?

How much fight do I have left?

One day at a time

My thought’s are not repeating as much as it has been

Still not doing or interested in any of the thing’s I had enjoyed doing. I was happy a little while this morning.

I’m lost in my head alot. I feel like I am going through the motions but I don’t feel like I’m here.

I’m so numb to life, to this world I’m living in.

I’m so tired of fighting myself and my thoughts.

whatever happens,happens

What if I’m the reason all these bad thing’s happen to me and my family.

I managed to attempt to play a video game yesterday but only could play it for 15 min I slept all day yesterday. I can’t seem to get myself to do anything and enjoy it.

One of the only thing’s I do that is productive is watch and care for my nieces but I can’t manage to even play and laugh with them like before.

I’m in my silent prison, how do I end this? I know one way to end this is to kill myself it would set me free but I want to be here for my family.

I’m so numb and tired

I’m so tired I just wan’t to let go.

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